Have you ever been afraid of experiencing what you most desire?
Or found what you’d automatically been resisting turned out to be key to your freedom and growth?
Lately, I’ve come to recognize the conflict that has lived in me between being drawn to that which carries the deepest emotional truth for me, and my fear of being swept away by its sheer intensity. Yet each time, once I’ve acquiesced to its current, it has borne me up and fulfilled me in ways I would never have predicted.
Such was clearly the case with my relationship to “the third Mary,” Mary of Niza, mother of Mary Magdalene.
I had great resistance to connecting with her, despite or because of the strength of this connection. Yet once I allowed myself to pass through that fear and open to her presence and messages, I regained a part of myself and received much that is precious to me, in particular the ability to share her gifts with others, and open more avenues to receive the gifts planted in biblical times.
There is so much more to the story than we’ve been told, and great misunderstandings that have occurred. One of these regards Judas, the man whose name has become synonymous with “traitor.”
Toward the end of my dictation-period with Mary of Niza, (published in The Third Mary: 55 Messages for Empowering Truth, Peace & Grace from the Mother of Mary Magdalene), I had the opportunity to ask my questions. By this point, Judas had been repeatedly referred to most positively. Though I’d discovered and strongly felt the truth of why this would be so when I’d read the book I Remember Union, I asked Mary of Niza, “What else can you tell me about Judas?” Here is her response:
“He was a strong, good-looking man of great integrity, true to his word. That is why his supposed bearing of false witness against Jesus the Christ was so crucial to the Christ story. It made him appear the ultimate traitor, though it was his deep loyalty that anchored him in doing this so the Resurrection would be possible.
Yes, he was consciously aware of this, and it was a brutally difficult role to play. He loved Jesus the Christ mightily and this was the cross he chose to bear when his soul stepped forward during this time in the Swing Between the worlds.”*
Similarly to how Judas’s part in the Resurrection is described, might there be situations and/or people we project our fear and judgment upon that are actually serving our highest good?
As we move into this time of Thanksgiving, might we choose to be bold enough to give thanks for that which has catalyzed our growth, spurring us on to dig more deeply for our wisdom and claim our empowerment? And even to give thanks for that which brings as yet unrecognized or unknown benefits?
This is not to say that trespasses against us are okay, nor to minimize our challenges, but to accept them fully, still knowing that we and they are more than what may appear at the surface.
From our greatest challenges may arise our greatest gifts.
And sometimes, opening to them may bring far more joy than the struggle of trying to fend them off.
I look forward to exploring this territory with greater consciousness and conscientiousness now, and with as much Grace and wisdom as possible to help me reap its gifts. And I wish you a whole-y, holy-day and time of great appreciation, fulfillment, and joy, and any support you may need to mine the gifts of your challenges!
Namaste, and a very happy Thanksgiving to you!
Roslyn Elena McGrath
*Excerpted from The Third Mary: 55 Messages for Empowering Truth, Peace & Grace from the Mother of Mary Magdalene, copyright Roslyn McGrath. All rights reserved.